xCollapsix

Practically dead from art sites and tumblr now, and I do apologize.
I see my digital work getting worse and worse and my traditional getting better, sadly. And all the art that I do is just for my A-levels.
A levels suck, big time. They take away the fun out of everything I have ever done. A-levels shittingly got me into having therapy sessions for christ's sake.
So, this is the usual deviantART journal full of baws and wines.
I really wish I could draw more but I see no fun in doing it, it's work to me and it's work I should put in to homework and school. A perfect assosciation.
Now I really wish I was 10/14 again just so I had the time and the motivation to do the work.
And then I'll go to Uni, and have the same problem, and go to Austria hopefully and live life as a shop assistant and have 10 cats and a lizard while my boyfriend pays for it all
and honestly, I wouldn't give a shit, I mean none of us are special but I'd really like a job where it doesn't distract the motivation I have left to create art and characters n shit
I've wanted so badly to create c00l artz and when I do now it just looks like penis and things that look easy are no longer easy
my art from 2010 is fukin better than i am now :c
shitting a-levels, man. just shit it all

1. - You must post these rules.
2. - Each person has to share 10 things about them
3. - Answer the 10 questions asked to you and invent 10 questions the people you tag will have to answer.
4. - Choose 10 people and put their icons on your journal 
5. - Go to their page to inform them they are tagged
6. - Not something like " you are tagged if you read that"
7. - You have to legitimately tag 10 people
8. - No tag-backs
9. - You can't say that you don't do tags.
10. - YOU MUST MAKE A JOURNAL ENTRY. NO COMMENTS. Unless you're commenting about the actual entry

 
10 facts about meh .-.

1. i have scoured away from deviantart but i pop in every now and then
2. I love moths. they are cute and squishy. i want to kiss moths. (in response to the tagger that is scared of them ;
3. contrary to popular belief, I am still with alex. its not like i could not be bothered to delete the iconz
4. i love art but i hate it at the same time. i'd rather be a fish
5. i am a retro gamer pretty much. i still play zoo tycoon 2 because mods but i hate games that are new that try to be retro. inb4 minecraft and unturned
6. i love kitties. i am a cat person. no cats aren't evil. you're evil. If you said cats are evil then no wonder they are evil 2 u
7. I have an addiction with the game war thunder. I hate it so much but i love it.
8. I never like using downstairs toilets. I always prefer upstairs toilets cause they're usually larger and warmer and less scary and cramped.
9. major fear of spiders but I'm not an idiot enough to have a phobia of it because i have da control m8
10. I regret many of my own made decisions which is why i rely on other people to make my decisions because I feel that it is better for me



Ty'z questions~ (2 me)
1. Favorite pokemon? uhh Dialga. but if it can't be legendary then Yanmega
2. Who is your hero? rob swoire and my mom and my nigga alex
3. If you could trade lives with anyone, who would it be? rob swoiiiire i bet he has major fun
4. Pick one! Invisibility, flight, flexibility or super speed? flexibility if that means shape shifting. I mean you can make yourself whatever
5. If you know who tomska is, what is your favorite ASDFmovie sketch? 4th one
6. PS3 or Xbox360? ps3 even though i have like 2 games for it. im a ps2 fan sorry m8 lol 2 hipster
7. What's your clothing style? the "niggachill" style. casual but cool i guess idk
8. Favorite Johnny deep character? jack sparrow. captain jack sparrow
9. If you could be any Norse god, which one would you be and why? i don't really know any besides thor. but I'll be yggdrasil. i'll be a tree
10. How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a would chuck could chuck wood? XP dependent on how much wood there is that the wood chuck could chuck

my questions to u
1. guilty pleasure game?
2. favoruote phone brand?
3. Why do you think so many people hate bugs?
4. worst pet hate that you have?
5. worst pet hate that others have that you don't like?
6. worst actual pet that you would hate to have?
7. What is the one sex position that you would never ever do in your life time?
8. What other talent would you wish to have besides the one you already have? (everyone has talent ;3)
9. if you could be any famous person who would it be?
10. would you fuck a duck

tagging:
if you want
IF ANYONE READS THIS YOU ARE TAGGED
PIRATES HAVE NO RULES FUCK THE PO PO

deviantart is worse than expected and posted my journals 100 times, i made this extra one to tell you i am aware that i am clogging it up

i'm sure everyone has noticed my hiatus lol. It came right after I met my boyfran for the second holiday back in august.
So can you pick up the pieces and realize what has happened?
shit loads of college work. College will be the death of me, i've already gotten suuuper anxious and my health is absolutely horrid and I have no motivation for any of my hobbies. But since I have no idea how to do my ICT homework which has been a pressing issue since college started (that subject is HORRID at A level holy shit they expect you to screenshot every single step you take) I'll spam some pictures to you.

And tell you about life updates lol.

All you need to know really is that I won't be active much until I find a spark to do my own digital work again. I've also completely changed my personality I guess, maybe
I got new arty styles which is cool. but only when i feel like being stylish.

And on 25th december when christmas was as borin as fok I got a PC :3 i can finally play some games, but then I can't draw or look at awkward stuff cause people will no doubt see it. It's a lovely windows 8 and I'm lovin it hasn't been an issue at all.
on 27th I met my boyfran again for an even longer time and it was all rly sweet and we did nothing but stay inside and sleep. very wow
on like the 2nd of jan i got banned from FR and I was far beyond pissed but understand the reasons and they allowed me to come back when registration opens up again. Hadn't gotten a word since about using my name and i wish they could just, idk, erase my account and allow me back on but they don't want
after those early january days I have just died and cried so much about work you wouldn't even want to know and so far the beginning of 2014 has been an absolute shit hole
at least boyfran was there for the first few days of january, and well 2013 has been a perfect year for me actually even though I hated it, there really was a lot of things thatwas happy 4 mi
and me and alex have now been together for 2 years which i think is A+ concerning long distance. and a lot of people said I couldn't last a few months haha fuk yall bithche
idk if I'll come back in recent days because pretty much all of my friends have left dA or are inactive like me.

I'm also more active on my semi FR tumblr if anyone wants to talk to mi :3 www.collapsix-fr.tumblr.com thank

lov u guys stay deviant